BLUSHSTROKE

just breathtaking...

2009-12-07T13:30:00.000-08:00

What if...

2009-12-02T06:52:00.000-08:00

We are not here to just survive and live long...
We are here to live and know life in its multi-dimension
to know life in its richness
in all its variety

And when a man lives multi-dimensionally,
explores all possibilities available,
never shrinks back from any challenge,
goes, rushes to it, welcomes it,
rises to the occasion
then life becomes a flame,
life blooms.

Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh
The Sacred Yes

If you knew that you could not fail....that everything you did...asked that girl/guy out on a date...started that business...even wrote that book...what is it that you would do that is different to what your currently doing at the moment?

If you knew that that girl/guy would say yes....that your business becomes a multi million dollar money making machine....and that book rivalled that of harry potter...would you still be at your job? would you wake up to that alarm clock only to hit the snooze button? would you travel the world? go skydiving? What would you do different?

Something to think about lovelies!!!

xoxo
baaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnanaarrrrrr

i bleed, i hurt!!

2009-11-30T15:04:00.000-08:00

randomest thing happened yesterday..

i fell down the effing stairs...for no reason at all...LIKE NO REASON AT ALL....i was paying attention and everything hahahahaha....hmmmmmm just super clutsy and all...hmmmm not the whole flight of stairs...maybe just 4 steps LOL...i think they caught it on camera and everything...hahahhah HOW EMBARASSMENT!!! awww well shit happens hahaha you can only laugh at oneself!! hehe

luckily it was carpet...didnt sprain an ankle...but did get a mad carpet burn on my hand and scrapage on the knees!!! i know im being a mad sook!! LOL but honestly it could have been so much worse hehe GOD LOVES ME!!!

IT HURTS TO FALL!!! LOL

xxoo
clutsystuff

visual DNA

2009-11-30T14:42:00.001-08:00

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my first crush EVER

2009-11-29T05:44:00.000-08:00

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, a day to love someone - but it takes a lifetime to forget someone - unknown

hmmm this is going to be short and sweet...

Once upon a time in a primary school playground...a girl who was about 9 years old...talked to a boy in her class...she thought he was cute with his brown chestnut hair and blue eyes that reminded her of the sky....that boy stole the original smith chips at first she felt this anger surge through her....then a weird sensation like butterflies in the stomach....hmmm and then an odd realisation that this was her very first crush hahahaha!! beautifully retarded story THE END.

do u get the logic of that??? cuz i sure dont....but that i will never forget....

ok now i gotta go!!

xoxo
rona

the first date

2009-11-29T05:16:00.000-08:00

The worst thing a man can do is kiss me on the first date. - Halle Berry

hey hey...

i know your all dying to find out how the date went LOL...i just wanted to keep ya'll in suspense.....or maybe not...hahahaha

he was so cute! he took me to an italian restaurant to truly experience italian food at its best...as promised...he would talk italian to the waiters and waitresses...just sooo damn sexy and randomly ordered bits of pieces...the delicacies...the food and atmosphere was great...all busy and abuzz...and when the food came out he would explain what was...where its from...and just be one hella sexy italian...hahahaha...it was truly a eye opening experience...i love italian food....pizza is like so one of my favourites...but this...this was something else altogether...i have now a new found appreciation for anything italian...

what did i think of him? well he's smart, interesting, observant, has heaps of attention to detail, appreciative, sincere...he told things that i would not have expected him to tell me...was just so very honest...and had these jokes that were so funny....so lame....but so funny...he intrigues me...honestly time flew by...and i hardly noticed...during dinner i kinda realised that he had these amazing biceps...(i know such a perv LOL) he be one hella sexy!!! LOL damn i love guns!! hahahaha

after dinner we went and walked around...it was kinda romanticish...i had this urge to link arms with him...but i didnt LOL...cuz imma pansy hahahahah...and just talked about random things....was really nice...pointed out different places...cuz im not really familiar with the area...we ended up driving his car to my car...and talking in the car some more...

u know how when ur date is finished....are u supposed to kiss?? like is that mandatory?? cuz i have no freaking idea what the go is hey?? i dunno i think kissing is kinda important...u know meant to be intimate and everything....who knows??? hmmmmm the topic kissing can be a blog entry by itself LOL hmmmmm i agree with halle berry LOL newhos this was like my first dinner date with an acquaintaince....LOL....weird huh? newhos i didnt know what to do but i asked for a hug...and he gave me one....am i a dork? cuz i feel like it...hmmmmmm i dunno neways...it was nice to hug...hmmmm

there is one thing though...he's alot older than me...didnt realise how much...but its a preety big difference...it bothers me...kinda a little bit...but when i talk to him...i dont remember...or i dont see it....so truly....no idea...will just have to see how it goes...dont want to over think things LOL

ciao ciao for now...
annaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrr xoxo

hungerdom

2009-11-26T03:52:00.000-08:00

ok ppls...

i always always always...forget to eat whilst i work....

random stoopid thing i did today...

i was famished having only eaten eggs and bacon in the wee hours of the morning...at the work days end...and after a long day of appointment after appointment...hehe...i went and got myself a chicken ceasar wrap meal from mickey dees....not so yum yum...but having convinced myself that at least its healthy...and that i would pass out very soon if i didnt eat..i accidentally ate abit of the paper...hahahahhahah....I WAS THAT HUNGRY I DIDNT NOTICE!!!! LOL

yep truly blog worthy!!! LOL

har har har

inks xoxo

BIG FIREMAN....BIG DATE!!!!

2009-11-24T23:07:00.000-08:00

ok ppl...today i saw about 4 firetrucks running rampant around sydney and about 2 firestations....the most firemenish day EVER!! LOL oddly enough im starting realise that i have an odd association with them....firemen....firetrucks....firestations....LOL i'll explain it one day but not today!!!! it will make you laugh...cuz my logic isnt logical LOL and seeing anything about firemenish just makes me smile BIG TIME and laugh sometimes hahahaha!!! newhos

hmmmm tonite i am going on a first date....im suprisingly really really nervous...this guy was a guy who i had closed a sale with...he was really really funny...and suprised me by asking me to dinner...i've never been asked to dinner before...by someone i had just met...and i thought about it....and i was like why not....lets have a YES MAN MOMENT LOL....personally i prefer to just hang out....LOL....the term hang out for me is like a comfort zone...where hey....where friends...and if leads to more so shall it...but really hey were just friends....right?? so yeh hmmmmmmmmmmm no idea wat to wear....and its actually kinda hot!!! but you gotta do the balance of sexy but not sexy....blah blah blah LOL awww wells....hmmmmmmmm ive decided on what to wear and its all matching YAYNESS!!! thats all that matters.....now all i have to worry about is the parking hehe...im so nervous.,...like really really bad!! me a gronk!!!

lots of love

me myself and i

.....happyyy....

2009-11-23T22:07:00.000-08:00

Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, worn or consumed. Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace and gratitude. - Denis Waitley

Have you thought about what makes you happy??? happiness i find is such a loosely defined thing...the littlest of things can make u happy...the smallest minutest thing...from a touch of a hand...a kind word...a long forgotten memory...it's always just a state of mind...it can even be a perception of sorts...you can feel it whenever you want to....thats if you want to...it's just interesting to think about...how at will...at anytime...we can make ourselves feel happy or sad...how much control we have over ourselves at any given time...by thinking thoughts of the past, of the present or a perceived future...

I'm a gronk...lots of stoopid little things make me happy...from the sound of a dear friends voice...to the smell of freshly baked cookies...there are times at my lowest when i realise that all i have to do to be happy is to remember...remembering the little stoopid things...appreciating and being grateful....blessed for all that you have...for all the endless opportunities available to us...there are some random things that make me happy...music...man when i hear my favourite songs...it just brings a smile to my face...and if im alone...can't help but dance to the killer beats!! hmmmm ok when my nails are all perfectly french manicured...i just think to myself....wow they so preety (SO LAME I KNOW)...and last but not least...when i smell my hair and it smells so nice....yep its stoopid, abit odd, but hey i smell great!! so there LOL...for whatever reason it cheers me up...even on the worst of days....I SMELL GREAT woooot woot LOL. i know random things....hahaha

Happiness cannot come from without. It must come from within. It is not what we see and touch or that which others do for us which makes us happy; it is that which we think and feel and do, first for the other fellow and then for ourselves. - Helen Keller

ppls be happy just cuz u can!!!

xoxo
bananaface

superficial me

2009-11-23T05:42:00.000-08:00

[vanity] was always my favourite [sin]
[glamour] was always my favourite [weapon]
[pain] was always my favourite [pleasure]
[beauty] was always my favourite [crime]
[envy] was always my favourite [poison]
[love] was always my favourite [hate]
[fame] was always my favourite [motive]
-unknown

Are you ever superficial??? EVER??? hmmmmm ok im superficial sometimes...ok not really but theres certain things that im really really particular about...LOL

ok BIG TURN OFFS...ok i could never date anyone that was

shorter (no matter how hot or sexy, attractive, funny or ridicoulously good looking LOL)
had ugly teeth (they gotta be preety mannnnn)
was smelly (i have an uber sensitive nose....no need for an explanation there)
had smaller hands than me (dont laugh!!! its cuz id feel like the man in the relationship....because of my huge hands that are just so like big and manly...well i think so anyways...lol...even if the guy was like the hottest, most funniest, most perfectest....smaller hand.....no go zone LOL)

thats it for today...cant think of anything else...so sleepy...
xoxo
Anna Banana

CLICKAGE....click click click

2009-11-22T02:28:00.000-08:00

WORD OF THE DAY

Amourous -

1. inclined towards or displaying love or desire.

2. in love

3. of or relating to love

Ok ppl...i have got to ask....what makes one person attracted to or "click" with someone else....that chemistry that spark...could it be as simple as these chemicals being released in ones brain??? is it the way someone walks, talks, looks....is it a combination?? is it in someones attitude...or perception of things....really what the fuck is it?? all i know that whatever it is...its so complicated...lol...but fun netherless....

Atm i have half a spark for this dude...hmmmmm dunno where its going to go but hey...no risk no reward right?? hes particularly interesting actually...funny, honest, !!! time will tell..

newhos that is all...

actually i just reread what i just wrote and well...all ive been talking about is love and stuff...lol BOOORRINNNNGGG RIGHTTTTT!!!! lol...well i dunno i just figured that one day ill read this and it will make me laugh...lol....hmmmmmmmmm i guess i just want the very best....i dont want to settle for anything less..(haha i rhymed....so nerdy LOL)...if that even makes sense....i can be very confusing i know....newhos ill update u on the other aspects of my life....LIFE is mostly great...family is awesome....love them....friends is awesome...work...is not so awesome....but ill make it work....i hope....im healthy, im breathing...im happy...
AMOUROUS....interesting word....wish i was amourous atm....lol

PEACE OUT!!! xoxo
Annaface

emotions, feelings such annoying, annoying things...

2009-11-20T17:56:00.000-08:00

i can lie to you all my days, but your the one and im a fool waiting for you...so long...to let you know - Come Around, Rosi Golan

hmmm dont know how to start this...but start i shall...

today I am a mix of emotions...feelings...such annoying, annoying things...

these emotions, these feelings that can more than overwhelm you, can drown you, can lift you, absorb you, outstound you, have a way of making you feel alive...good or bad...you feel, you hurt, you love but thats the beauty of it...you live.

at the moment, i am confused...

stuck between the past, present and future...stuck between my wants, my needs, my thoughts and my dreams...i know at this point im not making much sense but if i had to explain it would just take to long. you will have to take comfort in the fact that this....is just a release...not necessarily a scream in the dark....more like whispers in the wind....floating effortessly into the infinate...if that even makes sense LOL...

hmmmmm my love life is absolutely non existant from my point of view...but from other peoples perspective i may look busy...im meeting, chatting to, getting to know some guys but there is nothing there....this big blup of nutta! and the guys that i do have things for....not getting nutta from them either!!! SO HERE I AM NOT GETTING NUTTA!!! LOL SHIT HAPPENS LOL I know what your thinking....guys??? guys that she has a thing for??? nope, im no skanky hoe...im a one woman man...thats why i find this really well fucked up (really didnt want to use the F word but no other word can best express it...dont u think?) Let me explain myself...

im not sure how i feel about this guy...ive known him for like forever...i still have a thing for him...but the thing with him is...we have problems...and they cant be fixed...so there really is no point is there? not a point at all!!! but why are there these lingering feeeeeeeeeeelings...im still attracted to him...still find him cute...still find him annoying...and still has this look about him....whhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhyyyyy is it even like that (WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?? now im just whinging...too bad my post, my blog!!! LOL)....but ive started to believe that when it comes to these kind of things...if it doesnt work the first time it wont work the second time. when i really put some thought into what made us....it freaks me out that...i was so in love....yet it slipped away....slowly without even realising it....i let it slip....

i do promise that with whoever my next dude is....i wont let that happen (NOTE TO SELF: DONT BE A SHITFACE AND LET AN AWESOME RELATIONSHIP GO.....see i wont be getting with anyone unless their just.....well AWESOME!!! LOL hmmmmm ive got my work cut out for me hahahahaha)

and there is another guy...this retard of a guy...that i have a thing for...and i dont actually know why i even like the dude...he just drives me nuts...he irritates me...it's like he's this big fat elephant that just wont go away...BIG BRIGHT PINK ELEPHANT....like why did i even start liking this guy in the first place...hes such a shit...ok thats a lie he's actually really great...i can't help but think about him...ive got so much other things to worry about other than him...like my career, my future, my business, my health, other guys....and its not like he has any true feelings for me anyway because...he just wants my sexy bod LOL...ok atm im not that sexy....i know im attractive...(IM WORKING ON IT LOL)...dont actions speak louder than words?? what is he doing??? your asking...its more like what hes not doing...call me if you say your going to...he is annoying...maybe i like him...cuz i cant have him the way i want him...maybe the way i want him...i know will never happen...thats why u know i think about him....i think he just likes the attention...why leave me at arms length...(its so effing annoying....WHY, WHY, WHY see he irritates me so....see this makes me think about him!!!!)...that is what i dont understand? man did i confuse you? did i make any sense??? LOL (why does he have to be so insanely funny, sexy, cheeky....really gotta find me another guy!!!! not that im looking....more just waiting and starting to get a lil impatient...i ammm sooo effing lame!!!!!) something else that i find so annoyingly interesting with this dude is that when i chat to him....or im around him....its like a go mute.....NO ONE HAS THAT EFFECT ON ME....what the??? i go from this chatterbox who will talk till im blue in the face and eventually you realise that you lose all sensation to your ears and suprisingly enough it falls off....but with him....nope cant even stitch up sentences that make sense (ok im not that bad....but seriously it might aswell be)....wish he didnt have that kind of effect on me....maybe im just used to the fact that he just loves to talk...that he does all the talking and now permanently this is how our friendship will work...hmmmmmmmm maybe that it?? man i have no idea...no clue...its just annoying i tell ya!!! Effing ANNOYING!!!

im a fool waiting....not knowing what im waiting for...or maybe im waiting for something that even i wont admit to myself...DENIAL IS SUCH A BITCH!!! LOL

woo hooo to my first entry!!

xoxo
Anna